Haha..copied the style from Dan. Just 4 more papers and it is all over!
Econs taught us that there are trade offs in anything and everything
Statistics taught us that DW ought not be born (kidding), that acceptance does not imply truthfulness
OB taught us that everything have a certain order
Accounting taught us that left and right are interchangeable
Marketing taught us how irrelevant the module is
INSIGHTFUL eh?
"circle…circle…circle" echoed in Paul's mind. He couldn't help it but keep remembering the word, circle. Circle, which represents unity.
"oh, so you like circle too?" Paul asked. "Of course! Its pure and unique!" came the reply from Jane.
Circle is truly a unique shape. It has no sides. And its round.
Paul and Jane stopped, when the music ended abruptly. The busker had collapsed. He, the busker looked frail, and is now gasping for air. Paul immediately called for an ambulance. Within a couple of minutes, the ambulance had arrived. 3 paramedics alighted and used a stretcher to bring the busker to the nearest hospital. The busker by now is feared dead. "heartbeat is weak" said one paramedic. This magical evening is not looking fantastically fabulous right now. It may not be the evening both of them are looking for. Paul and Jane also hopped into the ambulance.
After a relatively bumpy ride, they had arrived at the hospital.
There look something mysterious about the busker. But Paul is not exactly sure of what is it. The air is crisp and cool. Both Paul and Jane looked into each other eyes. Their eye look as though it sparkles. And Paul hoped this defining moment will not stop. Throughout, Paul felt time had froze. Frozen time, time is wrapped up in a circle.
But we know that this moment will end. It is just a matter of time. Just then, Jane blinked. And she blinked again, as though trying to make a point.
Jane knew all along that their relationship is as pure as water can get. She had actually a crush on him for a long time. But Jane just would not acknowledge her feelings for him. She would just brushed it aside and not think too much about it. But not tonight. She felt her heart skipped a beat, and had some feelings of ecstasy during the dance. She felt as though Paul's eyes had melted her heart. Jane just felt so vulnerable in the company of Paul. And Jane just view Paul in a different light. Not as friends, but as her boyfriend. She didn't realized that Paul had been by her side for a long time. And flash backs started. How Paul cared for her when she was sick. And whenever they hold hands (for fun), her hands would be icy cold. Jane just realized she had unknowingly and subconsciously fell for him.
Jane just could not believe it. Her feelings are mixed. She did not know what to do, and how the future would pan out. She just want to run away from her feelings. But she knew she could not. Hurriedly, she hail a cab and went home, leaving the busker in the care of Paul.
"circle…" Paul continued, obvious to the feelings of Jane. And Paul cracked into a smile.
"Circle" uttered Jane, whom by now is in tears.
I know that this is very impossible in our lifes
And am unsure of the uncertain future that might behold us
However, if I dare to request
That I love to fall into this beautiful and emotionally taxing pitfall with you
Despite knowing that what i feel towards you
Might not be appreaciated
For you have someone special
I only just hope
That I could be with you
Anytime and Every time
Thats all that I ever wanted
That you'll spend more time with me
Cry together when either one of us are sad
Hug each other when we're feeling happy
But sadly
This couldn't be possible
For you're no longer around
And a part of me
"Would you dance with me?" Paul asked Jane one night under the dark sky, with neon lights dotting the CBD skyline at the barrage. Flashback started for Paul, back to when they first met each other. While for Jane, she was just standing there, shocked and speechless. It was kind of unexpected for Paul to be doing such things since
Jane and Paul knew each other since young (like for 12 years already). Paul was 5 when Jane moved into the cul-de-sac (at Sixth Avenue) 12 years ago. Paul still remembered the day fondly, like it happened yesterday….
The sky was gloomy with the grey clouds threatening to pour. Paul, being 5 at that time, saw a delivery van approaching. The van braked hard when Paul dashed across the small and narrow road (which in no way is friendly to a van of that size). Jane, in her pink dress (she is not pink panther) walked towards the direction of Paul. She was attracted to Paul's wavy hair. And he is attracted to Jane's angelic hair. Jane, in her soft spoken sweet voice whispered, "Are you alright?"
"I'm alright, thanks." Paul replied. And after a few seconds of awkward silence, Paul could only ask Jane, "What's your favorite shape? Mine's circle."
Jane could not help but let out a small giggle.
And that was it. It all ended with Jane letting out a giggle. Jane did not revealed her favorite shape. And they were 5 when it happened.
Now, back to now (shortly Paul asked if Jane would dance with him) …
"Please? I know if I fall for you it's my fault. Let us try it out, can? Please? if we like it, we could continue with it. Else, we could just be back."
"Alright then. Because we have no feelings for each other."
And Paul placed his hands on her hips and they started a waltz. A slow waltz, to the tune of "Starry starry night". ( A busker was playing that tune on his saxophone) And so it all begin with this fateful dance, which will change everything that stood with them forever. FOREVER.
Jane whispered to Paul in his ear, "My favorite shape's circle too."
Hi xxxx this is xxx. I just wanted to say how much xxx is xxxx about you bring yourself forward to face the future. Sure, xxx is definitely at fault. And xxx knew you're so full of courage to step out of the shadow, and not fall within the pitfall of all this crap. Xxx is sure to be very proud of xxxx.
Just so remember that xxx is all way out there for you and xxxx is so lucky to make the right choice. But do not be pre-occupied with the thought that you are fighthing with someone. All this started because of nobody's fault. Because it is the timing. So if you want to blame someone, just blame xxx. Xxx should not be part of your life at all. Anyway, xxx is a little bit of a psychic, so, just curse xxx mouth.
Xxx is there for you to blame. But you knew xxx is not entirely to blame. Xxxx is so terriable afraid of changes, but since this is the ending, thus xxx perceived it that xxxx must stay strong and focus and just acknowledge it. Do not ever accept that this is the ending for everything that was once so beautiful. Else, you are forever living in the shadows.
Because everything here happen for a reason.
Xxxx will want the time to rewind past and stay that way FOREVER. Xxx do hope it that way, too. But without progress, you can't grow. And this is ultimately a learning experience for you all. If time stays still, you are in your own shell.
P.S Why is it known as the pouring rain like, she danced under the pouring rain. But not, the rain was pouring?
It is the last day of the semester and practically, the last of everything, least for finals. And what is the worst thing that could possible occur about your grades? It's not like not receiving the grades you deserved despite studying for a loooonnnnnnngggggg time or anything like that. But its ultimately at the end, you wouldn't enjoy what you are doing. Because life is all about enjoyment. Why do you bother to even try to do things which you don't like?
It is another 7 days before the first paper. Well, 9 days more to 4 more papers. So me had 5 papers. It isn't a big deal, since for Os, we had 7/8 papers. So this is gonna be easy. I broke into a smile and kept laughing while doing Biz-Stats revision. I think I'm cracking up.
Friday is yet the day for emotions to unrest itself.
I did not expect it to occur so soon. But I knew one day, this will arrive. And everything that anything will still happen, but this is the least expected. Perhaps it is due to me being unprepared in the first place.
How I wonder what you are
Up above the sky so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle, Twinkle little star
Let me glaze at you one more time
When a star twinkle, it meant the star is going to die soon. Where the star will burst into flame and let off some halogen gases. Shortly after, a new star will then be re-born, and after gazillion light years, the same cycle will be repeated. Again and again, like a vicious cycle. And life itself is yet another vicious cycle. You experience the sweetness, then the bitterness, the sourness and the sweetness. Then the bitterness, followed by the sourness, likes a cycle. Life is thus like a cycle because somehow, everything will hit back to you. Be it the good ones or the bad ones.
The cycle of life is so complicated to the extend whereby you wouldn't know at which stage you are at. And the progress you are heading along to. You could be at the ending stage and next, you could proceed back. Back by a step or two and the duration of your cycle could be longer than others. Alright, just forget about this paragraph if you do not understand what I am talking about.
Let's try a poem. Whoever thinks poem ought to rhyme? Just have a meaning and it will be as perfectly beautiful as everything once holds to everyone.
The times and Newsweek
Which I subscribed to every week
With prices so steep
It was hard to sleep
And so I count sheep
Thousand of sheep
I counted every night
One day
Newsweek stopped arriving in my letterbox
And that day was the week after Boxing Day
Naturally,
Since it was a special double
And that was it
The week was never the same
Without you,
Newsweek.
For you enlighten me
Bright up my world
And made me feel at peace.
It's you
Which is so magical.
There is something so unspoken about you
The magic
And everything within
Into yet another dimension.
Let us
Get into a dimension
And never to return
Into the dimension
Of Fun
Forever
:D
The poem was so bad, I know, and nonsensical. But soon, such nonsensical poem might be a new literature hit. Just kidding…
It's time to hit the slack back again!
I so want to eat!
Where to eat???
Nice food that is nice…
Best hidden food places?!?!?!
I know of one!!! SERIOUSLY
And it's zhi cha (however you spell it) and you must pre-order, otherwise you must wait for 2 hours. No kidding!!! And the food is nice and heavenly. YUMMY!!!!!!
Y: So you went out with <another girl's name> during new year's eve?
Me: Which eve? Chinese or Ang Moh. (don't ask me why I even ask such a question…I'm so exhausted to even think properly)
Y: Ang Moh
Me: Ya
Y: Not awkward meh? With her boyfriend?
Me: A bit lah.
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We talk about how I have the vouchers and how <girl> and me and he are together on that eve.
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Then we talk about the movie that we watched.
Me: So we watched separate movies.
Y: Why?
Me: Because I want to watch The Tourist and <girl> want to watch Fockers
Quite unlikely for her to talk to me about such things. Ok, its like how someone could know my matriculation card number without me telling him. Or how xxx knows my room phone number.
Perhaps I am past caring on the small talks and treat each and every sentence as something which one meant it. so when you say something like, Good morning, I just take it that you genuinely want to greet me, right from your heart. Your facial/body language might betray you, but I still appreciate it and my opinion of you won't change. In short, I'm past caring to decipher the hypocoristic of even a simple greeting. If you have to guard yourself so firmly against such "harmless" things, must why you just go hide in your room?
Promises are so easy to make, but hard to fulfill. Empty promises. Like We should hang out together some day! You know that is not going to happen….but I thought I will.
Not today, sorry L Perhaps we shall have lunch next week? When next week approaches, you are so not free and leave me so disappointed.
Ok, I sounded so naïve here. But I'm sick and tired of promises or comments made and is not fulfilled. Maybe you do not mean it, or just due to time constrain that it cannot materialized. Who should I blame? Its not my fault, neither its yours. Blame the horoscope….maybe our star sign just do not match perfectly.
With the dreaded CNY away, which meant there isn't any visiting to do, hypocritical creatures to meet. It is thus great, and perhaps I might be in a better mode. See you guys again next year! Or just during Grandpa's birthday. And there we go all over again.
February, with quite a fair lot of assignments and essays and exhibitions to cover. It is of no wonder I'm so exhausted already. Somehow, something is lacking in February. I do not know what will bring that the passion back.
November was full of gist, and December, equally great, with the fire and positive energy. January started with a bang, and by mid-Jan, the fire was gone. Poof, and was gone. Perhaps 2010 was such a great year that it's a pity for 2010 to be gone. I so want to remain in 2010, and not 2011. Look to the past and stay stagnant forever. Travel forward, and great surprises awaits.
It is something like you just don't feel like doing anything. And heavy eye bags, puffy eyes. In the morning when one wake up, you just know its just another day. JUST ANOTHER DAY. Not a day which is bright, the sun is shining brightly, the air is crisp and all that. Greetings were light-hearted, with a smile, from the heart and you mean it. now, the greetings are still from the bottom of my heart and I meant it. but there is a feel which is gone. This feel is so difficult to explain. You just knew something is amiss.
Thank goodness it is all ending soon in another 3 weeks. And I will be off to have total relaxation, a theatre to catch next month, and a musical on April. Oh yes, not forgetting another play on April, which I had yet to buy the tickets.
And it is such a pity that a wonderful and beautiful and pure friendship is going to be ending soon, through no fault of either party. We still say our Hi and Byes. I so want to talk with you, but I do not have any topic to talk about. I can't be so dead random and like SMS you, THE WEATHER'S GREAT TODAY, DON'T YOU THINK SO? This friendship is pure because it works in such a special way. we are not looking for favours from each other. We just talk, and chat and bitch. But never request either to help with major things like…..give vouchers or anything like that. Not like someone, whom always pester me for vouchers. We are comfortable with each other, and no, we do not think too much about it. It's going to end soon, and all I'm asking is for the one last chance to be as friends which have a common shared memories which I will cherish…FOREVER. <3
Hope to be friends forever, friends whom don't communicate with each other. But we know we are friends, who can relate to each other truly well. Perhaps it is all not meant to be. Perhaps we are waiting for each other to call/SMS with a simple 'Hi'. Friendship works in a funny way.
The nominees had been revealed! So was the nominees expected? I think it's a big fat NO! For the first time, CHEN HAN WEI name was not there! Perhaps it's time for Tay Ping Hui??? Hope so, for the sake of some formal recognition of his acting skills.
As expected, Breakout (Mediacorp's mega production) has so called dominated a majority of the nominees. You can't fault Mediacorp, since I believe the company had spend quite a number of fortune on the productions. And also as in previous years, Mediacorp's long running series (Your Hand In My) had quite a few nominations.
Best Actor
Christopher Lee - Breakout
Elvin Ng - Breakout
Qi Yu Wu - The Family Court
Tay Ping Hui - The Family Court
Shaun Chen - Your Hand in Mine
Christopher had not been on the google box for a long while. Elvin's role is quite good and creative. But somehow I think he overdid it. anyway, Breakout is not a very nice drama if u ask me. It is not just the acting, but the so unrealistic script. Channel 8 drama ought to be something whereby it is realistic and simple.
Shaun Chen nomination here is quite unexpected. Actually I had forgotten about him in his role of the bad guy in Your Hand In Mine. But his acting is quite consistent, especially so for such a long drama (180 episodes). His nomination clearly shows the efforts he had put in. With him pitting against big names like Christopher and Tay ping Hui, chances of him winning is very slim.
Best Actor would be a contest between Christopher and Tay Ping Hui, and I definitely hope Tay Ping Hui will win after being nominated in the same category for donkey years. It is nice to see a fresh face once a while.
Best Actress
Chen Li Ping - Unriddle
Jeanette Aw - Breakout
Zhou Ying - Breakout
Joanne Peh - Your Hand in Mine
Rui En - With You
Chen Li Ping has once against showed the audience her worth. But she ought to be nominated for her role in Your Hand In Mine too, with her catch phrase, 雞蛋炒鴨蛋。Jeanette Aw, with her weird accent in Breakout sure had diminished her chance. Anyway, she had been nominated since 2009 till now and had yet to win, edging out to Joanne Peh and Chen Li Ping. It just shows she is good enough for just a nomination, but not an award. Anyway, both Joanne and Jeanette's Wikipedia page does not have their photos, compared to Rui En. Joanne Peh is fun to watch in Your Hand In Mine, especially so for her role as Jin Lian.
Rui En, with her serious acting in Unriddle is also quite a joy to watch too. But Unriddle is a show where the script is interesting too, and it complements well with the actress acting. Zhou Ying, with her nice naïve acting, is quite an overkill.
Best Actress would be going to Rui En for sure. It is now her time to shine.
Best Supporting Actor
Andie Chen - Precious Babes
Darren Lim - Breakout
Terence Cao - The Best Things In Life
Yao Wen Long - The Family Court
Zzen - Unriddle
The first thing that came to my mind is Terence Cao. Either he gets it or don't. I dare say the competition here is the widest because all the nominees have equal chances of winning the award. Darren with his usual comical acting certainly is tops, but wont one be tired of such acting??? But still, he's the one with the experience.
Best Supporting Actress
Ann Kok - The Family Court
Cynthia Koh - Happy Family
Lin Mei Jiao - Breakout
Pan Ling Ling - Breakout
Xiang Yun – Unriddle
Ann Kok, who had quite a few roles recently is up for another nomination. Will she win this time round? Or will veteran Pan Ling Ling and Xiang Yun win? Pan Ling Ling ought to be also nominate for her role in Your Hand In Mine as Dolly.
Where one tends to be tempted to embark on yet another journey in life, where you'll never know the end results. Where changes are going to be made in a drastic way. Where everything and anything which once stood nicely is going to not be the same.
It seemed like a phenomenal that occurs in everyone's life in some point. It is just a matter of time. When you re-evaluate the relation between you and others, and however well you think you could remain status quo. Naturally, it will be the time you are sick and tired of certain people. And usually, the people will reveal to you their ugly side. But despite knowing their character, one might continue to be with them. For whatsoever reasons. And naturally, get hurt again by their ugly side. And you could not turn to anyone, because you knew they would do it to you again, but despite knowing it, you still continue to be treated in that way. Are you just plain stupid or ignorant.
